So I guess I should write an entry telling everybody why I'm leaving. And why this is my last entry. There are too many memories and painful things on here. And everytime I log on its like I get flooded with everything I'm trying to avoid right now. Maybe in time I'll be able to think about it and be okay with the things that have happened, but right now I can't. There's so much about tennis, and the fall. And then all the stuff about skiing kills me. Espeically everything after Killington. I think I really hate him. And now there's stuff about Jake. And it was so sudden, I just don't get it. I guess I'm a person who likes explanations and the reasons behind what happens, and that suprised me so much, I had no warning, and I can't make sense of it at all.. no matter how hard I try. So this is done because I need to heal myself.