A lot of things have happened since I last updated. Not good things. But they made me think.. a lot.
I think that love, true love, is a concept thats been lost through media. i think its one of the few things that truely matters on this world. i think if you truely hate someone, than you are wasting way to much effort on hating that person when you could be doing something so much more productive. i hate lying, i think lying is one of the stupidest things anyone can do, because you're not only saying, "hey i obviously cant tell you how i truely feel or what really happend because i'm not strong enough" but you're saying, "i really dont think your worth putting myself through it". i think everyone has lost sight of respect, they build it up to this huge deal, when really its about as simple as you can get, just dont do anything to anyone you wouldnt put yourself through and be able to come out of with a smile. i think everyone needs to laugh, and not like smile, but laugh so hard it hurts, and i think they need to spend about 60% of their time awake doing this. I do believe that laughter is the best medicine, and i want to be the prescription, and if you know me, you know i try really hard to be it.
i think sex is too much work if there's no feelings behind it, to get naked and bang someone with no feeling behind it, is too much work, i think i'd rather just finger myself or something, because then you dont have to deal with the conversation or the reprecutions afterwords. i think now and days kissing and hugging has lost its credibility, this is a really good way to express your feelings towards another person.
i feel like friendships have losts themsevles in being able to associate with people that will get you places or be able to enjoy the same activities as you do, instead of being someone you can bond with. i think movies are an amazing insight into how things could be but are over dramatized for our entertainment. i think music only reaffirms how we feel and that can be dangerous. i think being able to have good communication is probally one of the most important things in the world, and without it we're all lost.
*takes deep breath*
..and i know i am not perfect, i dont walk on water, and i've probally gone against almost everything i just wrote about. but what does this all mean?
i think life is just that, life. its how you live, and what you do. i think if you dont live your life to make yourself more than anyone could ever imagine, and if you build up everything around you, you'll be far more loved than anyone could have dreamt of. and with all that, you'll impact lives, and it'll make your life so much more than a life, it'll make you live on, for as long as those lives live, you'll no longer be a person, but a feeling, an emotion, you'll be support, and love and if anything else a legend. so what do i think of my self...?
yeah i am all those things, i do feel that way, and i try my hardest, everyday and every night and every second that i breathe to do all of those things, and i try to stick to what i think and how i feel as best as i can. i have fucked up, and i have hurt, and i have lie and cheated and stole and hurt. i'm not perfect and i'm not trying to be, i'm just trying to be the best that i can, and if everyday i can make one person feel or think differently about themselves or the world around them, if everyday i can make one person laugh, one person smile, one person dry their tears, then you know what i'll die happy and i think, i think i've done that...