well.. mm lets see wee tomorrow erica comes home that's SOO awsome .. i feel bad for beeing excited though because it's because he uncle has like 3 days to live :( we were like we'll be excited but we wont tell anyone lol :P but i'm soo excited cause she comes tomorrow and is here till wednesday night and then i leave thursday morning for the trip with a few of my Closest buddies S2 and the love of my life! how perfect does that work out? sometimes life can be so good .i feel like theres got to be something bad comming up lol-- I talked to my sister last night and today like actual conversation it feels good to talk talk like no fighting or anything because we are 5 years apart and we kinda fight a lot but we talked about how im gonna wear my hair and i showed her the picture of how i want it .. and the picture of my dress and she thinks it will look really good :D and we talked about a situation i have going on at the moment and she told me to just end it because it will turn out like something she dealt with.. so i'm gonna do that it's so awsome to have an older sister cause she's already gone through everything i am right now and so i already know what to expect and everything.. :) yay the trips in 6 days! that's soo exciting my first trip *tear* ryans last :( blahh well we will have to make this one awsome trip .. im excited im rooming with cassie emily and gav. lol that's gonna be NUTS lol! especially with me and cassie together in a room lol it gets crazyy at times :x and now im listening to music and FREEZING ..im going taning tomorrow ahh i hope i don't come out looking like a tomatto :x Ahh! lol i wanna get some color for my trip and then after the trip i'll be getting down to getting some serious color for ball which is a plus cause i will be all nice and tan for summer S2 i hope summer is fun last summer sucked :( it was horrible but i think this summer will be better .. i have a better idea of who my real friends are (( Love you guys )) and i have an awsome boyfriend and it should be a lot better .. hehe i lost like 4lbs!! that is awsome .. i got a few more to go and ill be set .. i would like to weigh like .. 95-96 ryan yells at me when i say im fat but ehh i have gained a few sense summer but i've been workin on it i was watching 100 most wanted boddies on VH1 or something like that and these actresses, models,singers, ( famous people ) have such nice abs Why not me lol .. i wish i could just like snap my fingers and BAM i was like them :P but then again doesn't everyone? lol well i'm going to go.. Bye for now! iloveyou RYAN S2 *kiss*