i hate back to school time .. my mom like hates spending money like you cant NOT spend money parents SUCK.. yeah today was sort of a bad day .. Except when it was Pouring and i went out in the rain : ) but yeah ryan went to the mall and i wanted him to call me quick before he went and he didn't .. and then he said he would call me later and hasn't .. OH WELL im use to it by now .. Tomorrow Starts swimming i am SO excited :D i can't waiitttt YEP :D i wish emily would swim with me but she wont .. eh oh well i guess i'm going camping with her this weekend it should be interesting lol Haha I'll give ryan a taste of his own god damne medicine i'm not gonna call him at ALL ..see how he likes it .. i mean it is that hard to give a quick phone call .. It hurts too because i Love him idk maybe i'm making this into a big thing and it shouldn't be?? probably .. idk i don't know anything anymore i am so lost and confused right now I haven't been like this in awile and i am .. I feel like no one really knows how i feel and no one understands.. and i feel pain .. and im lonley and Sad blahh .. I feel so Lame when i say stuff like that but i don't know how else or WHO else to talk to .. ?? i wish i had someone to talk to about this But until then i guess i will just spill my thoughts out to all of you a bunch of strangers : ) well .. I'm Going to go do some other stuff .. Byee S2