ugh .. i haven't seen ryan since the band trip.. i miss him so much and i can't go see him yet because his it still contagious :( emily and chris wanted to hang out with me and him this weekend and well me em and chris will prolly hang out but no ryan *sigh* oh well .. we are prolly gonna hang out in his house or his camper thingy hehe that would be fun there's a bed in it so i guess i'll sleep while they spend time together i mean i like sleeping so .. my day totally sucked .. this week has sucked ughh i'm in such a crappy mood .. and i can't concentrait on anything idk .. im so emotional latley like a few nights ago i was soo upset and like i couldn't stop crying *hides* when i was on the phone with ryan i was crying and he was like i gotta go so i was like ok and he asked if i was ok i said yeah but i dont think i was because the very second we hung up i burst out crying *runs away* idk whats wrong with me .. i feel week and useless and alone and soo BLAH .. like i have felt this way since the day before the trip and i don't know why and i don't know how to not feel this way .. idk .. .. im gonna go :( .. eh RMBS2ALWAYS-