hehe i just read my comments and i S2 my friends hehe :) (( yes the hoodie smelled fantastic :X )) lol well yesturday i was suppose to go to allura with jen and ashleigh i was mad i couldn't ughh i got in trouble for not wanting to go to church and that i called my religion teacher and idiot .. lol she got really mad about that well he changed out class time like 20 times so.. yeah anyway my mom and emily's mom talked on the phone the other night when she was here and emily's mom was talking about how she isn't ok with her and _____ going out and how she says they can be friends but nothing more and now if shes here and ryan and _____ want to come over she's gotta call her mom and ask and we already know that her mom wont say yes so .. eh : man if i didn't have my friends to cheer me up idk what i would do (( love you guys all of you!! )) so yeah i woke up all early today to go to religion and i don't even have it because of vacation i could be sleeping right now because i was up a little late last night i couldn't sleep eh and today ryans gonna come over so i can see him before he goes to that marathon thing he's a cheater!! lol :X (( I Need You ..yeah I need you dont walk away)) sorry for that random song lyric but im singing so lol sometimes i just think about what it would be like if i died don't you ever think about that stuff.. like who would be at my funeral? who would cry? who would move on and forget about me? and how long would it take people to get over it ..would anyone visit my grave? wierd questions i know but idk..i did a lot of thinking last night and that was one of the things i thought about lol " I live more than I cry " i wish i could drive i would go visit mad people :P lol soon i will be able to .. well like 2 years but oh well if those years go by as fast as this one then its soon i can not believe its almost time for report cards again .. damn after this week we get out 5 week reports already this year is going by SOO fast but i want it to go by fast until it gets warm then i want it to go by slow like all my teachers are like save this you'll need it on your finall AHH i HATE finals omg i wanna take a stack of them and set it on fire lol they are the devil :D lol well im gonna go be back later maybe- Ps. a hint when you finish a entry copy it so that if it doesnt save you dont have to lose it and re-type it :) Ryan loveyou*