you h ave kno idea what your doing to me nd how much i am dieing inside right now...thank G-d i have these strength to write this all down instead of doing somthing drastic that i will regret forever...maybe thats not such a bad idea...i dono anymore..ive lost faith in everything including all of you..u let me down nd now i cant survive..how am i supposed to survive alone with out anyone here to help me? i need someone there for me whether i liek it or not nd i jus dont get why you do this to me..you act like youre my friend but then u turn around and act like a total jerk nd i cant take it.am i being used for everything i have? why do you squeeze everything out of me that im good for? for ur own sick pleasure nd ur own entertainment. well i wont do this anymore because im alreadi too far gone that i cant come back..i cant return to the life i once lived cuz i dont think i can take this pain anymore and i just dont understand how you think i can do this how you think i can bear it all in my heart. well my heart is busted nd out to look for someone who really carez becuz i dont kno wat to do anymore.plus i want to cry my eyes out but my tearz wont seem to flow..all the people i used to be close with are now too close with eachother that i dont fit in..all my new er friends dont even like me so wahts the use..maybe if i jus lef tthis place everything could b better cuz nothin is worse than this hell...