ok! you win! youve got me pinned under your strength. im weak. youre strong. jus please dear g*D dont make me hurt anymroe. i cant take this anymore.... unloved.alone.afraid.alienated.hurt. ok so i talked to the guy and all it did was hurt me more... he said how amazing i am and how much he cares for me, nd how sry he is, nd all this stuff....but i dont get it... so i asked him if im so special why arent we together...nd he says he has no idea and he cant find a single reason..well....wat is that! ahh i cant take this... then i asked him what he saw in his gf nd why he asked her out nd he said cuz shes quiet and shy and that theres somthin special about her...nd how shes a lot like me... well wat!!! i dont get this...he says hed like to date me one day...well i cant do this... he told me to forget him cuz hes not worth my time but wat he doesnt understand is that i cant forget him as much as i want to and as hard as i try its no good. he may not be worth my time but something will happen or else why is this happening? i cant: eat.sleep.think.concentrate.stop crying.be nice. be normal. have a good day. im crying almost always now when im alone and i cant fuckin figure this out.. all i want to do is be with him, i kno i kno i am guy dependent and thats not how i should be but can you blame me? hes perfect in every way... he may hurt me like hell and make me want to die but its not in the way you think... he says such kind things that make me love him more...thats wat hurtz.... i want to die right now if only it could take away my pain... what should i do? please help me...i realli need it...or i fear for the worst...and i dont think i can take this... advice please.... >today i had dance...it was soo fun we told stories and went to cravings and had a fun time wit nook nd lady j lol im gunna miss them. he said hell make a class for jus us this fall...im excited...tomorrow we hav a new teacher nd im sposed to hav plans wit eric (abbees freind) if im not working...<