soo todaii i was sposed to go wit kat nd tova somewhere nd they wanted to go to derykks house again but i diddnt want to go cuz i feel soooo awkward there and its not a good feeling..so after i argued wit tovie for forever i finally got out of it..i was gunna meet them at wendys but they never called so i jus yea watever....it was ok tho i didnt realli want to go anywhere... then gordy called me and asked me to meet her at wendyz..so i was walkin outside when i called my mom to tell her i was goin there.. nd shes like "NO YOU'RE NOT YOU'RE GUNNA GO CLEAN OUT YOUR ROOM!" so im like ok watever... it took me like 2 hours to clean out my room...it looks alot bigger now its lovely...lol im proud of my self, i learned to let go of a lot of things from the past..well...yea then i went to get abbees new fone activated...nd got lunch...then yea... then i was sittin in my room with abbee nd then rachels like we are goin out to dinner!! im like ok!! wo0t lol little did i kno it would be full of chaos... ok so yea my Dad has had M.S. for 7 years and he nd my mom have been divorced for 10..ive learned to get over it, yes he lost all of our money, and wennt crazy but hey thats life, me nd rachel being "good hearted people" as my mom calls it, we talk to my dad nd gramma nd try to be nice cuz who knos how long either of them will be around..abbee nd jackie (my other two sisters) on the otherhand tend to hold grudges nd keep their feelings inside of them forever, abbee is the worst, she jus holds it in and wont tell anyone anything she says she doesnt trust her family and thats wat makes me so mad..we are the ones she should trust, i trust her, she doesnt trust back, she said im the only one she trusts but i don believe her...we asked her over and over again why she doesnt like my grandma nd my dad but she jus says 'I HAVE my reasons, but they are none of your business' nd we couldnt get anything but tearz out of her...she has no reason to hate my father and she jus ugh jus give it up alredi!!! cuz he has no clue what he says anymore so yea nd he jus need someone to talk to he sits at home all day jus thinkin about us...like it drives me crazy when im home sick for TWO DAYZ jus TWO DAYZ nd he has to do it for his whole life, for the past 7 years..ive learned that if they arent going to change then i should jus be there for them and talk to them, hav a good heart and be a sweet daughter and granddaughter but i dno, theyve never done anything for me but i try hard to make them happy and content..they alwayz fussed over abbee nd jackie nd been like oo they are soo adorable, me nd rach were always jus CHopped liver er watever, now we are the ones takin care of them nd they kno they were wrong cuz abbee nd jackie wont even talk to them anymore..watever, theyll be really sorry when they are gone... im realli bored,i miss people, i realli do... J*me