okay so ive decided once and for all to give up on this one guy that i fell in love with...he didnt show up to my sisters party todai so i got realli mad..he says his friend wouldnt let him but i kno hes jus lazy and a jerk..why didnt i listen to everyone before all of this start??...todai sam was over and we hung out wit all of booees friends at her graduation party...it was funny! i think i kinda sorta like her friend...hes realli funny and hes a cutie!!...haha plus he plays guitar realli well nd i love that!! nd he has longish hair which i love!! haha yea...why do i all of a sudden go for the older guys??!? oy confuzin lil ol me...me nd sam had fun!! deserai nd kaylie are still here and me boo nd desy are goin to Jellybeans first horse show tomorrow! im realli excited for her and i kno she'll win cuz she is a beautiful horse and ive never seen one like her!! i love that lil chica!! haha ill put a pic on for ya'z...my cousin David told me bout this realli cool band called the Killers if any of u guys heard of them..they are realli good nd im gonna get their cd...but ok so this boy yea im jus fed up and im sick of waiting and being crushed..plus i think he thinks im annoying and retarded so fuck that!! i can do better...i hope...my friend told me todai that hes the kinda guy that doesnt kno what he wants...which is realli tru.. haha yea well yea...i realli need a friend that will b there for me always so i can talk to them about everything...im still looking... i feel like writing so here... "I'm Done" its over and im through all i could ever think about was you all you did was crush me and kill me you never could be there completely i wish youd jus go away nd make things right but i kno youll be back and then take flight youll run away like you always do but im sick of running and im through im tired of this crap all u ever did was make me sad but there were times i felt safe like you could jus take away all my pain but i kno you were too good to be true like when you said "i could never lie to you" that was a lie and i cant get over it you lied to me and made me feel like shit i cried for hours for you and i wanted to die but now i kno im done and i wont cry becuz your not worth my tearz although you took away my fears you still hurt me and thats bad enuf i guess it was jus bad luck the timing wasnt perfect now ive moved on and ive learned from it lies, tears, nd love thats life but thats always been loves right to take away the pain then make you suffer worse until u find the perfect one that takes away the curse im still looking but im still young jus kno this much...im done... (arent you proud? ive moved on nd stopped denieing things..) *pray that things get better and stop getting bad cuz things cant get worse and for that i am glad.*