So, i know that know one i know reads these things anymore, but i find it to be important that i write down how i feel about my life today. I look up at that picture on the left, and i think..who was that? and where did she go? i mean, i dont even look like that little girl anymore, i feel so much older, even though it's only been two years... ...wow...two years...thats a long fucking time...and reading these entries, i realize how naive i was, im not saying im all worldly and old and shit but i'm older than i was i;ve got so much lef tto learn and im ready for it. Today i;ve got a boyfriend who seems to truly care for me. and i care so much about him. My family and i are finally okay after all that shit with jeff...so messed up i've found my close group of friends and i'd like to think i have a best freind or two. i'm happy with who i am with right now although i miss everyone else. like sam and julia and sherry and grace and kat and now lexi...and everybody else. i miss the times we had, but it scares me to see how much we've all grown and where we;ve taken ourselves. we all have different lives and dreams and i'm okay with it i've learned to accept things..although im distrustful i'm learning to trust who ican and i'm glad. i've got no idea why i'm still writing this, i guess just to show my progression. even in the way i type, it's pretty ridiculous, -Jamie