things have been unbelieveably (sp?) sucky and good for me these last cupple of weeks. im staying at the shelter and thought it sucks ass it has movivated me more then anything has before i have a job now and im just waiting to save my money so i can get an appartment and live happly ever after. things with tom havnt been so great, i really need him at this time but its not really working out too good, last night i wanted to tell him we should never talk again only because its so hard for me to talk to him and know where he is and whats going on with his marrage i feel l ike he does nothing to fix the spot hes in he just calls me to whine about it i mean i wanna listen because i love him and i wanna do all i can to help him its just hard cause of how i feel, i have such hatered for his wife now she at one time was such a good friend and i thought of her as such. now everything is so fucked up and i cant help but blame him. i know nothing