im still going with ryan on his road trip but im not going to take beads i was going to because i thought thats what he wanted was to leave the state, but im convinced that he loves to be miserable. im over all that bullshit. i did go to susans house and she was like 'i dont hate you i like you i told him not to bring that fat bitch zoe around' so things i guess are cool with us, i was going to go over there tonight but i was thinking im not going to because it would be weird. i told him something that is not very good and i think the only reason i said i was going to susans was to make him freak out. i had a pretty boring night i thought it would have been funner but not. i went to susans and got beat up by gay jesus and sully then christopher helped..hah it was funny we left when beads went to bed and jesus sully and i went to kroger to spange for beer, well the boys played chess out side of kroger for like an hour i got bored with it and we walked to jesus house and we went to sleep there was this lady at kroger omg so was a wingnut she was dressed up in the cap and gown she wanted to trick or treet at kroger and she gave us really nasty cigarettes she was out of her mind sully kept asking for spare change and she was like 'yeh mmmhmmm' but she never gave us any