drenching cold and tired i lay there feeling sad and upset as you say goodbye you dont want to talk ill call you tommorrow but the ring never comes and i feel like im last...again. thats how its always going to be do you not appreciate the things that i give not understand that you you live inside deep where no one can see the pain im put through each day trying to find you pull you back how it used to be my mexican lover my one my only........ _______________________________________________ cry i wont laugh i cant sneer i wish smirk i hope smile hell no scream i will ________________________________________________ well im back to the begging and i just reached the end another end to a almost perfect person another end to a attatched heart i will move on and i am strong but i cant keep doing this to myself i had to stop it you understand i had to leave you standing awestruck no im not wrapped i can find other people i have my eye set on one and hes good for me i kno but it will take awhile before im ready i guess im really not back at the begginning _______________________________________________ and as i stared into space....i dreamnt of.... _______________________________________________ that was some good stuff last night Gina!