agh im so bored with life, with outcomes of certain unstabilities. i have a pain in my upper back that wont disappear. and my grandma still struggles to die, but is hanging on. isnt life strange, how you could want so much more and feel like your getting less then expected. i was told the other night, when question arose, of 'If God is soo good, Why do bad things happen', and an explanation that will forever stick with me was God was merciful......look what he doesnt bring forth, if there was no God, like would be hell, he is merciful if that makes any sense at all.