as i sat there on the phone awaiting your final answer, you were so mean, it crushed me...i was so anxiety filled, coming down, having that test tomorrow that can change my life, or hurt it, i was so hurt by your reaction, but thats the thing lately i keep getting hurt... _________________________________________________ when will i stop doing this to myself, i feel so Weak thats the word the word for me Weak am i really i never thought i would be Weak _________________________________________________ you read this, maybe, and think that this is such a small thing, but it builds baby, it builds...its everything, from the start to the end...yes i believe i..no we.. might be coming to and end... _______________________________________________ forever, thats how i wanted it to be forever, but you dont always get what you want theres an interesting quote, if you wait for everything to be perfect, nothing would ever get done, so why in hell are we still waiting? do you think we will get through this? _______________________________________________ cold, im so cold _______________________________________________