where is the dull life leading. nowhere down the long unending twists and turns and new discovers that haunt my every being no more sweet dreams to rest my easy eyes too. am i sad.. no i dont regret my decision..its one that had been on my mind since the time i needed comfort the most and none was provided. the bitter pain of lonliness just drives itself into me always reminding me its still here, and possibly never leaving... o my green eyes, how i wish i could be with you...just loving you as a friend is all that can be done, i dont want you to hurt me...leave that to another guy... ...actually leave it to myself i need to be free, get out of this fucking sea shell that traps me..every way i look im haunted by the hurt from others, dont draw me in i dont want to comfort you your something ill never understand but as i think back to the last awkward relationship i placed myself in will you remember me...youll be just another guy in a few months...will i just be another girl to add to your roster with sarah and leslie and then you my sweet strawberry....why do you have to live all the way over there...when im in constant loneliness i remember it didnt bite my ass so bad when our little long flown away fling was happening... grandma i wish i could stop your suffering that i could wipe the pain away...id even take it on myself..why do you suffer....god why do you let her suffer in this life when she wishes only to be gone..shes lived her life and now she wants to exit out of the worl why is that so hard why is every move even a single breath a constant struggle. i see it in her eyes those beautiful brown eyes