hmmm today was an interesting boring journey through another long day of life...but gee im not complaining! i was watching the real world the other night, and thinking about Frankie ( the depressed one thats almost exactly like me except im not 'punk rock' ) and how she only has a certain matter of time before she dies, and how grateful i need to be because i have my entire life and im wasting it thinking life is horrible...than i was thinking how my life can end just like that in a blink of the eye, how i could be gone, and never get to say goodbye, theres so many things horrible out there that i could get, and im not exceptional to any disease...wow life is such a trivial journey.... then i was thinking, how can people be so selfish as trying to take it away? do they not understand its time to live it up? theres so many people suffering that WANT to live and here am i and so many others that want to die?! and to think we arent doing it for anyone else, were killing ourselves for us..! im defintly trying to stay positive latly and not think of death and suicide, i would never do it...i could never, but it does pass my mind, like everyone elses, but think of all the people that love you and how much you will be missed, even if you think you wont, you will...your taking your life away and not even waiting to see what will come in the future! your taking a father or mother away from a kid, a lover away from a lonely somebody, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, seriously think things out people! 'a broken heart feels pain, but a melodramatic heart brings on its own'