why am i searching for you? looking into the faces of strangers, catching a glimpse here and there. he has your hair. she has your eyes. he laughs like you. i can hear your music in the distance. and i can feel it fading. it gets softer the further you go. so far, im losing sight. why is my heart still beating for you? it died long ago, and yet i sweat. i didnt see you among the books. you drifted in and out and in again and pat my shoulder. the memories float about and i cant help but sigh at what was once euphoria. i wasnt in love with you. wasnt even close. and yet...