there is so much to be done. and so many thoughts in my head. im still doing the vegan thing and its going really well. the only thing i find myself craving is turkey toms and chocolate. not that big of a deal since i could just go eat vegan chocolate. but turkey toms, not so much. i really miss jordan. im giving this "us not talking" thing a trial run and if i STILL cant stop thinking about him in another week, we'll see. or maybe we'll just see how things go when i go visit. he's handling all this so well...makes me love him more. friend issues...i really dont understand. i LOVE everyone here, i do. and i've never felt like i've had so many friends before. but some people who i consider to be good friends dont treat me very well all the time. or they expect a lot from ME, but i get no thanks or reciprication. i dont know maybe im just sensitive. i mean i KNOW im sensitive. or maybe there's some truth in the fact that strangers are perfect and friends im not all THAT close to treat me better than ones i am. or maybe my closest friends are just like family, and we feel as though we can treat eachother poorly at times. what am i even talking about... im mailing jordan a valentines day present even though we're not together. i think its going to make him very happy. he's going to be so surprised. :)