So the past few days Jen's been wanting to cut herself again cuz she's been so stressed lately. The other night I had to convince her not to, I love her too much to let her do that. So saturday night I was having vodka and lemonade cuz no one was home and Jen calls me saying i'm gonna be disappointed. Apparently she started to cut herself than called me. at least she didn't bleed. I wish I can be there for her, she needs me now. I also hid a new bottle of vodka under my bed hehe party for one in silva's room.