Jen called yesterday and it made me feel so much better, I really do miss her a lot and guess what, she misses me too and she does love me. Later on yesterday we were talking online and she was telling me the it wouldn't be healthy for me to be with her and that I should be with some one who's as sweet as me. pfffft I don't care. She's a druggy and stuff and she says it wouldn't be fair to me but i'm willing to put up with it if I get to be with her, I love her way to much for me to not be with her because of that. Our main problem is that our relationship is long distance. She said that until we're actually together (as in standing in the same room) we should probably see other people (at least she said that's what she wants me to do, see what's out there) and when the time comes for us, we'll have to chose either each other or the other person. Now that would be an interesting situation. I don't know this is all just so wierd and confusing. Larson and I were having our usual nightly chat and it's so weird how all the things he went through with his ex happened to me and what happened with me and Jen happened to him. It's also a weird coincidence how but our ex's are named Jennifer. It was interesting, we both opened up to each other and stuff, he told me stuff he had never told any one else before (mostly cuz he really didn't have any one to talk to about this kind of stuff) and I told him stuff I usually don't talk to other people about (like the real story behind me and Jen). I always have a good time talking to him, we went back and forth asking each other random question and we played the beeping game lol. Good times. He was telling me about a certain situation when his phone died. damn, i really wanted to know what happened. anyways, I have to go my mom is annoyingly yelling at me to get ready. **************************************** Ok, new update. I went to the office for the volunteer thing and it really seems like a fun place to work. Who knows, maybe i'll keep working there after my (i think) 9 hours are done. I really need to call Nichol and catch up on things. I'm too shy to call Davina lol so Nichol needs to fill me in on her (that doesn't sound creepy does it? no meant to be). So I cut the back of my hair again, not exactly the best idea lol, I think I cut too much ehhhh I can life with crappy hair for a few weeks.