This morning I woke up at 5 to call Jen 8 her time, than 5:35 than 6:30. I had to call her three times cuz the first time I let her go back to sleep, the last two she didn't pick up, grrrr.. she called me later and we only talked for like a min. I went back to sleep and slept till 11:30 but my mom woke me up cuz we had to be at my cousins wedding shower at 12. Since she wasn't too happy at a few of my cousins she was like we're going late I don't care. I cared. I didn't want to be late, i'm not the one who's mad. So the shower went by pretty good, some people who RSVPed show up didn't and I found that to be kinda rude. if you're not gonna come, just say so, it's just common courtesy. Jen called me while I was there but I kinda hung up on her, I felt bad but I was busy helping out. I got to talk to her more earlier which was good for me cuz I always miss her. We had to cut our convo short cuz she's going to spend the night at her step sisters house and Neva's (her ex) going to be there too. Jen hasn't told her that she's been with me for almost a year now. She said it's cuz she never asked, whatever. But it's probably better cuz of Neva's history, but she should know that it's useless to try to get back with Jen because Jen loves me and not her anymore, well she doesn't love her like she loves me. Jen still cares about her and I can understand that. ehh I just don't like it when people like Jen. so now i'm home alone and I really love it. Being home alone is one of my faves, I get to do whatever I want and I don't have to worry about turning down the music or being embarassed for singing to myself lol.