Ok, so Nichol and Davina are the ones I hang out with now at school every day and also Larson, Matt, Carlos and Adam. Oh and sometimes Ashley. So there's a big change in friends there. Quick note on the vanessa thing, apparently she was in love with me or whatever. eeehhhh. that's over with. So yea Larson like me a lot apparently and people keep telling me that he does and they want to know if he has a chance with me. Well the fact that i'm gay doesn't give him much of a chance, but it's 90 10 so we'll see. I've become really comfortable with him, he's really cool and really sweet. Friday I had an open class so he asked me to spend it in his and I did. we have this good connection, but I can't see him more than a friend. Funny thing was Andrea (this one hot chick who my friend went up and asked if I had a chance with her, not a good move sacia considering I knew she was straight) is in that class too, it was kinda funny kind she kept looking at me. What's even funnier is that I told larson about it (he's friends with her) and she told him about it. Funny how all of us are connected like that. Anyways, Davina's ex-sort of girlfriend is Britnee, and Nichol and I don't like her. We were the co-founders of the I Hate Britnee club. So I finally met her last friday at Jon Jon's for the hardcore show. That was an interesting night. I was like ooh hell. It was a good show and she wasn't too bad, we talked for a little bit. Anyways, saw her again this past firday at Kuppa Joes and Nichol and I were kinda ragging on her and Lindsy (she was one of davinas friends from her old school, now goes to ours, girl doesn't know how to shut up.) So guess what Britnee did? She called knocks on me (meaning she liked me so she knocked on me) and apparently she thinks i'm hot. Funny how she did it in front of Davina. We all just figured she did it to try to get to Davina since she thinks Nichol took her away from her. whatever. Girl never treated her right. By the way, the show sucked ass, it was mostly emo bands..grrrrrness.. Yesterdays hardcore show was a loooong night though It was a good show. Dead Elizabeth was gread though I got a bunch of bruises on my arms, but that's ok cuz it was awesome. Us girls and all the boys were there. Me and larson were beating each other up and stuff and whenever we sat on the bed futon thing we'd be on top of the guys and i'd always be on larson. Him and I hung out a lot yesterday and talked but I still don't feel anything for him. Brit and Lindsy aka The Shady Sisters were there too. Lindsy would touch my boobs and Britney would touch my ass. weird girls. I was lying on the pool table cuz it was late and we were all kinda out of it and she comes up and slaps my ass. I look back and all I see is lindsy and Tasha (she's good friends with davina and really cool) than I see Britnee pop up from behind the pool table and run out. a minute later I go and find her and i'm like what the hell. The girl is not right in the head. OOOOOOOOOOOooo I forgot to mention me and Jen have been having problems lately and last night at like 11 we agreed to take a break. It's really the best thing for now. I gave Davina, Nichol, and Tasha massages on the pool table lol. So a little bit after my call with Jen Britnee comes and lays next to me on the pool table and I was telling her that her and Lindsy are shady and said that it seemed like the things they do, they do it to try to make Davina either mad or jealous. Of course she denied it but yea, i didn't really believe her lol. These girls tell lies and make shit up, of course I won't believe her. So a little later I see Tasha and Britnee looking at me and I know they're talking about me so I go see what's up. Tasha says something and leaves so i'm left with Shady #2, Britnee. She was all shy and kinda nervous and tasha kept looking at her. She put her number in my phone too. Apparently they had a "secret" and every once in a while Tasha would come over and they'd whisper. So I finaly got Britnee to tell me but she said that people are looking so I take her to a bunch of different spots and we end up in the handicap bathroom stall. She said it's not something to say, but do. OMG, I was like ooooooohh noooo. I'm standing there in a stall that I locked with a girl who's gonna try and kiss me. I spend ten minutes trying to get her to do it (I didn't actually thing she would) once having lindsy interrupt us (I found out later that davina and nichol came looking for me and she said not to go in the bathroom cuz we were in there, hell) and she finaly goes for it and I turn my head, tell her I can't and just hug her. She than gave me a kiss on the cheek. What really makes me wonder is why Tasha was the one who was like making her do it. She's not that close to her and I talked to her about this weird situation a little while before the bathroom incident. So now i'm like in an I don't know place. Larson really like me and we're good friends, but I don't feel that way about him. Britnee says she thinks i'm hot and tries to kiss me but I think it's one of her tricks or whatever and it involves Davina some how. But if it isn't than I don't know what to do about her either, but I know i'm not gonna get involved with her because she used to be with Davina and the stuff she does to other people in not cool. Plus she's kinda trashy lol. I've been told to stay away from her and not talk to her, which is what i'm gonna do. Though there's another show this thursday and friday and maybe saturday so I know i'm gonna end up seeing her. Damn so much complication