i don't know why i have this need to write in here every few months. it's been almost exactly 4 months since i last posted something. so a little update, me and maire never slept together. dang. i know. but we're good friends. i think goly is in love with me. i really just don't know what to do about that. we were affectionate friends but then this whole fiasco happened during the frisco trip me her and larson took. i was just like whatever it is causing way too many problems. i told her we should just be platonic friends. then she got mad and depressed about it. everyone is telling me that she's in love with me and for the first time, i actually think it might be true. i in no way am in love with her. i just don't feel the same at all. yea i care about it but that's all. we're are like bff and i think we might loose a friendship over this. damn. i don't know what to do. sarrina is coming to town in a few weeks. how do you tell some one you don't want to have sex with them?? i don't want to hurt her feelings. we haven't slept together in like 6 months (mostly cause she moved) but since the last time we slept together i've turned her down all the other times she's tried. crazy shit. i just want to date some one who's not "all natural" who won't get insanely jealous to the point of yelling at me and not talking to me. where is my cute awesome girl?