where have all my friends gone? it seems like i have to go back through my life and befriend everyone again and then now theyre too good for me for a lousy phone call to know how my life is going. My life and my friends have gone astray and i need guidance but yet these tears dont help one bit. The tears of confusion that are tearing me apart have been the division of me from my so-called friends. The ones i used to call my brother now wont and dont even want to know where i will be in a couple of months. Thats what i hate most is that people i used to trust with my life i dont even trust with a penny of my personal worth. I just want people to be happy with me and my life but i cant seem to find people here i think i have found a few but they are hard to find. I am getting my dream of a new life handed to me and i am going to take it and run with it and i am honestly starting over. I truly am i already blocked out the people i dont want to talk to with a new screen name and now myspace will be deleted so i wont be in contact with them anymore or see how their life is going because i truly dont care about them if they cant... this is my turning point or off ramp in life to release myself from everyone but honestly i am truly happy i am doing it because i honestly cant deal with living here anymore these tears are starting to burn my eyes as i think of the past and how happy i used to be until i completly fucked up my life i will never be happy with what i have done with my life.. i can honestly say i HATE MYSELF for what i have done and who i have become. you have no idea what i have gone through. With my family and friends school and growing up.. i cant stand living here anymore... this place has too many reminders of how i used to be and i cant take it anymore i want to reset everything to neutral and put the switches back to "0" where i can have a fresh new start because i have over exposed and over cooked my life here and i really need new friends and a new life i truly hope you all will be happy because you are getting what you wanted...me out of your life.