mike r.: hey how does your shirt fit?? GoddessRandi: huge :] mike r.: really mike r.: is it a small?? mike r.: i think i got a small mike r.: wash it GoddessRandi: i will GoddessRandi: and then i'll take it in mike r.: How you doin?? GoddessRandi: i'm alright GoddessRandi: kinda bleh mike r.: why didnt you say hi before the show or let me know you were there GoddessRandi: because i didn't want to bother you mike r.: one thing you could never bother me mike r.: i love you mike r.: well i think i could love you mike r.: id do anything for you mike r.: im so happy you came mike r.: i want too hangout mike r.: wanted too # GoddessRandi: mike, you don't know me well enough to love me mike r.: but i think i could mike r.: you grab my eyes and all my attention GoddessRandi: of course you could GoddessRandi: but i don't want you to mike r.: why not?? mike r.: cause you dont want me?? mike r.: is it cause i come on too hard too you mike r.: i dont mean too GoddessRandi: if you and i were ever to be together, it would be disastrous GoddessRandi: i'd probably kill us both GoddessRandi: i don't want to have to worry about you, and i do that enough as just your friend mike r.: why>?? GoddessRandi: i really only want friends right now GoddessRandi: why what mike r.: i dont mind dieing GoddessRandi: because you drive me insane GoddessRandi: i don't like drugs GoddessRandi: or drinking mike r.: how do i drive you insane GoddessRandi: i don't like thinknig all the time mike r.: ?? mike r.: im giving it all up GoddessRandi: you said that a while ago mike r.: and you would help me with that mike r.: well if i had you i wouldn't need too GoddessRandi: have me how? GoddessRandi: why would you need to? mike r.: i dunno GoddessRandi: do stuff for yourself, not me GoddessRandi: all these people... they make all these promises GoddessRandi: they pretend i'm something special GoddessRandi: and it's hard for me mike r.: so im a people too you GoddessRandi: because i'm so fucking high up on a pedestal GoddessRandi: everyone is people mike r.: im just lonely mike r.: id do anything too have someone GoddessRandi: that's what i figured GoddessRandi: so it's not me, mike GoddessRandi: i'm just someone to you mike r.: yes it is GoddessRandi: and you're just people to me GoddessRandi: you treat me like every other guy does mike r.: but i want you GoddessRandi: for what? GoddessRandi: you want whatever you can have mike r.: really GoddessRandi: everyone says they want to be my friend GoddessRandi: and then as soon as i break up with chris, there are ten guys trying to fuck me GoddessRandi: how is that being a friend? mike r.: easty for yiou too say that when im so worhtless i dont know what too give out GoddessRandi: i almost killed myself three days ago, mike mike r.: i dont want to fuck you GoddessRandi: don't pretend to talk about worth GoddessRandi: my life is worth nothing mike r.: yeah and you almost die when you get in a car too GoddessRandi: heh mike r.: im worth less GoddessRandi: you're too funny GoddessRandi: i' GoddessRandi: i'm* tired of trying to make people understand me mike r.: your worth money more than all the money in the world GoddessRandi: if you don't want to fuck me, what else is there mike r.: you wont even give me a chance GoddessRandi: i'm not good for anything else to you mike r.: im just telling you i love you GoddessRandi: how the hell can you love me mike r.: and you gotta get all up on yourself like that GoddessRandi: i'm a horrible person mike r.: i wasnt asking too have you till you got into it mike r.: like " god all these guys want me" GoddessRandi: .............. GoddessRandi: right mike r.: your not horrible GoddessRandi: because you're not listening to me mike r.: you got bAd bad self esteem like me GoddessRandi: and that's not how i meant it mike r.: i am listening to you GoddessRandi: it isn't bad GoddessRandi: i'm fine GoddessRandi: my self esteem is fine GoddessRandi: not good or bad mike r.: i think your much alike too myself and GoddessRandi: everyone thinks that about me mike r.: id like too spend more time with you mike r.: not try too fuck you GoddessRandi: everything you say to me, at least fifty other people have said GoddessRandi: and then they end up fucking me GoddessRandi: i'm just a piece of ass mike mike r.: well thats fuckin great GoddessRandi: let me go GoddessRandi: there's nothing special about me other than i give great head and i'm light enough for the hard positions mike r.: i fucked a donkey last tuesday did anyone tell you that?? mike r.: what the fuck are you talking about mike r.: listen too yourself mike r.: you have sex on your brain more than me mike r.: how the fuck are you accuseing me?? GoddessRandi: you'd be surprised mike r.: yeah GoddessRandi: i'm not accusing you of anything GoddessRandi: i'm saying GoddessRandi: you tell me lies mike r.: but im a gut GoddessRandi: i don't trust you GoddessRandi: i don't believe you mike r.: what kind of lies?? GoddessRandi: when you say you don't want to touch me mike r.: what do you think im lieing about GoddessRandi: how the fuck can you love me? GoddessRandi: everything mike r.: yes i wanna touch GoddessRandi: you wouldn't have noticed that i wasn't at the show mike r.: yes i wanna fuck you mike r.: but its not my goal GoddessRandi: until i said your name after GoddessRandi: just to let you know i came GoddessRandi: that i don't break everything i say mike r.:: and i could go for yrs with out it and stuill love you GoddessRandi: i don't want to be loved anymore GoddessRandi: i want everyone to forget me GoddessRandi: i hate people pretending i have worth GoddessRandi: there is no value to me, good or bad GoddessRandi: i'm not special GoddessRandi: i'm not anything mike r.:: you are special mike r.:: your worth alot too me GoddessRandi: i also don't want to be convinced otherwise mike r.: your randi mike r.: sorry mike r.: your right GoddessRandi: because it doesn't matter to me mike r.: worthless bitch GoddessRandi: mike, we'd both end up dead GoddessRandi: there you go mike r.: i didnt mean that GoddessRandi: sure you did mike r.: dead?? GoddessRandi: it didn't hurt GoddessRandi: dead mike r.: you dont know mike r.: that GoddessRandi: yes i do mike r.: i could make you happy GoddessRandi: everyone tells me that mike r.: you could kill me GoddessRandi: everyone thinks they'd be the one to make me happy mike r.:: tells you what?? GoddessRandi: i just want someone to accept that i don't want to be happy GoddessRandi: i don't want GoddessRandi: i don't want someone who doesn't mind me killing them mike r.: well im angry little fucker i dont think you could make everything go away GoddessRandi: heh GoddessRandi: i want to go blow bubbles GoddessRandi: and be sad or happy or whatever without anyone else trying to interfere with how i feel GoddessRandi: plus, i already found someone to make me happy mike r.: man i wish i could understand you mike r.: iv wanted too for so long GoddessRandi: and that fell through because i'm not satisfied with happiness GoddessRandi: maybe someday mike r.: but your so cut off GoddessRandi: not right now GoddessRandi: no i'm not GoddessRandi: i'm open GoddessRandi: and everyone else refuses to see it mike r.: like me so i guess itll never happen GoddessRandi: there is nothing cut about me GoddessRandi: it hurts to watch you move, i was cringing when i saw you onstage GoddessRandi: i don't want to hurt someone who doesn't care if i hurt them GoddessRandi: bye mike r.: why!! mike r.: Dont go!! GoddessRandi: why? GoddessRandi: because GoddessRandi: there's nothing to understand about me mike r.: would you want too hurt me?? GoddessRandi: it's just accepting mike r.: would you like too cut me?? GoddessRandi: maybe GoddessRandi: would you cut me? mike r.: yes GoddessRandi: love is caring enough to hurt someone mike r.: would you like too beat me GoddessRandi: not right now GoddessRandi: not in a passionate way GoddessRandi: just in an angry way mike r.: i mean hitting me in the face GoddessRandi: you're too beautiful for that mike r.: but i want too be hit in the face GoddessRandi: and i'm too vain to destroy beauty mike r.: im not beautiful GoddessRandi: i said that a few days ago GoddessRandi: "i want someone to hit me in the face" mike r.: take off my stupid curly hair mike r.: and im as ugly as the next mike r.: thats not fair you mike r.: holding me all like beautiful mike r.: but you cant except my words GoddessRandi: why isn't it fair GoddessRandi: i never said i don't agree mike r.: i dunno nothings fair GoddessRandi: i can accept them GoddessRandi: i accept that you're ugly GoddessRandi: but i also think you're beautiful GoddessRandi: but i don't want to be with you mike r.: i dont want to be with you either GoddessRandi: then why are you talking to me mike r.: i just want too know you better see you more i dont know what i want GoddessRandi: when you figure it out tell me mike r.: i dunno i dont have any expectations mike r.: i know that you make me so angry inside mike r.: you make my insides get hot a burn around mike r.:: and i cant explain how i feel when im around you GoddessRandi: i'm sorry GoddessRandi: that you think of me at all GoddessRandi: goodbye mike r.: i want you too hurt me mike r.: your just making me think of you more mike r.: im just sitting here staring at the keyboard mike r.: i got no where too go mike r.: no one too see mike r.: nothin too do mike r.: nothin too hope for GoddessRandi: and i don't feel sorry for you at all mike r.: noone too hope for GoddessRandi: and for that i'm sorry