once again i choose chemical hope over crushing my future. i say "let them come" so long as they come while i'm watching. have to close my eyes to take a drink. close my eyes to take a drink pissing in the bathroom sink because in the toilet is a shark i saw it swimming in the dark michael's here to hold my hand somehow he seems to understand floor tiles aren't always cold they warm up as the story's told i saw it swimming in the dark. yeah so i guess i'm going back to school on monday. tomorrow. whatever. these days slip away so fast. happy birthday stepmonster.