every time i smoke, it makes me want to throw up. what did you think the attraction was about? the beginning of a beautiful relationship. i'm working hard at becoming the worst. it's going well so far... just like always but flipped around. i'm going to be the most beautiful mess anyone has ever seen. tortured artist is so done. miserable is the old black. i'm taking this so much farther than they'll ever be courageous enough to feel.