ahhh, i read some private entries and they made me cry. i cant stand it anymore. i mean they are filled with sooo much about something and just to think about the shit i wrote makes me cry. i dont know why i feel this way, especially when i know i shouldnt, that is it best that i dont...but nooo it dont work like that. i miss everything even though i am right here. i mean i hate who i am as well as others hating me but like no matter what i will always bring myself back to the one forbidden thing. WHY? why does it have to be sooo complicated and everything, i mean i hate having a huge like empty whole in my life, and i cant take it anymore!
BLINKIES:
you just read it now
wow
i feel like total shit now!
dont hate yourself
you are because you exist
nothing to tell you other wise
so why bother going against your self
it doesnt help
you should hate other people for not being more like your self
only way to make an absurd world sane
oh yea
existentialism
existentialism
any one?
any one?
existentialism
your in a relationship
weird!
thats the sort of thing normal people do
oh well
youll never get better till........
you start caring for yourself
first
mabe u like feeling this way?
makes u feel real doesnt
pain makes me real
but also extreme biss
oh yea