hmm a little about me: *People are not my good subject! at all!!! *I am not into any sort of label at all. *People piss me off, so I like being alone *I try not to care what people have to say about me because frankly...people make my life a living hell so fuck off if you're one of them *I try to be alot nicer to other people than people are to me *I am always here if you need someone to talk to...rather I know you personally or not *I deserve the pain and bullshit I live with *Crying is normal for me...and its proven to be healthy *I like music...anything except like country, opera, rap *I can be really anti-social at points *I have some stupid thing where I will hold on to something to long and to hard at points *Just because I smile doesn't mean I am happy *I am still searching for who I am *I can be a really big bitch if I want to be *I am a failure *People judge me too quickly and hurt me very easily *My family isnt there, they just downgrade me *I isolate myself alot *My life has become a lie *I am often sad/depressed *I am tired of holding on in life when I have nothing to hold onto *I find it hard to show the real me to people because it gives them more to talk shit about and hurt me even more *Alot of the time my laugh is just covering up that I am hurt because I dont want to cry in front of you *I hate the word "best friend" *I am sick of putting up with shit *I hate how people look at me and automatically start assuming *I hate preppy stuck up people *I dont like when you lie to me, i can handle the truth *I HATE empty apologies, promises, words in general *You don't need to feel obligated to talk to me or be my friend *Don't talk behind my back...say it to my face because I dont care *I don't feel I need to impress anyone because that is stupid *I hate how I look *I hate my pictures *I dont keep a picture of myself as default long because it makes me feel like total shit and I get depressed and it is disgusting and disturbing *If I do...I avoid the site! *If I tell you something, I am not expecting you to pitty me, or anything...dont apologize *I hate when people try pressuring me into something i dont wanna do *I dont drink or do drugs or smoke, if you want to i respect that *Girls tend to annoy me the most *I hate the media *I am far from perfect, i know how much of a failure I am so honestly, you dont need to remind me...i hear it enough! "Maybe these tears will turn to death, because inside i just want to die"--by ME