is this an illusion that i have in my heart?

Listening to: obsession
Feeling: bashful
I don't know what to do, I think I'm in ♥love♥ I feel pathetic. I feel rejected. I feel unwanted. Yet, I still feel I ♥love♥ him. He is *adorable* and *heavenly* yet i just hear shit from Zoe lately. I mean she tells me she wants me happy and that it is "cute" how i am acting, but then she like turns and tells someone i hardly know that i am "madly in love with kyle" and like...why? But i am having conflicting feelings...like always. I feel i am allowing myself to plunge into this and actually be happy yet then i let myself fear that nothing will ever come from this. and I just want that *someone there* and that security which I have never really had. I want that picture pefect romance story, like all the love quote show. I have it on my own...but i Just want a guy to feel that way about me. and i actually think i want to be with Kyle, unlike glenn. and i dont want to be rejected, I just want to be ♥loved♥ and have that feeling of completeness and purpose in life.
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awwwwwwww
well glad to here ur happie. like dah hippo.