i feel like complete shit. i cant stop crying. i just want out of life and everything. i cant stand it...i am screwing my relationships and like i just cant succeed. i am in love with glenn and i cant take the pain. i just disappoint myself soooooo much. i disappoint myself by eating, by crying, by failing, by messing up and getting bad grades, by my physical appearence, by always ruining the good in my life, by falling so far down, by losing hope, everything is just another let down and i hate it. i want out. i'll never amount to anything..i know it and so does everyone else. i just fail...and fail. and hurt and try to cover it up but i cant. i want to be strong...i've kept myself from crying for a while but i just cant anymore. i cant live this life and like..........fuck....everything about it sucks almost and i know it'll never get easier. no matter what. and i have nobody to talk to...like always. everyone has left...i pushed them away and i have destroyed those friendships like always. everything i do i mess up.