i started to write poems again so here are some: head hung in shame life consumed by pain tears fall in a constant flow the side of me i dont want to show Deep sigh, then the tears flow i sit here crying about things you dont know worse this time whats wrong with me i am tired of everything the pain, the hurt, the tears eyes buring as vision blurs makeup running down my face chills throughout my body wanting to scream, yet i cant breathe is this normal? i cant handle it anymore everything i know has changed are you still capable of removing my pain, or are you its cause? guestions flying thoruhg my head, demented thoughts approach feeling like i am spinning while lying on the floor staring at the celling becoming numb i now have no feeling painful tears with a constant flow life shattering more than you know with hopes of dying i continue crying only a wall away i can hear every comment you say its not a world apart, no matter the feel while you sit away talking about me, i continue to cry in shame knwoing this pain will forever remain sitting alone if fear, pain and mistery, i think dreadful thoughts i cry disappointed tears, life quickly shattered a horrible mess you feel for me nothing but shame while i feel nothing but pain all i ever had was a lie it was a whole game you never felt what you said years later i lay here crying hoping to die not being able to breath and choking on my tears while i live out all my fears body aching in pain barely being able to move there isnt anything i can do anger consumes me hatred fills as i attempt to scream why in the hell do i dream?