"...and all of these bastards have taken his place, he's forgotten but not yet gone..." that's actually kinda how i feel, but that's knida actually how i always feel, so i don't really give a fuck anymore, i'm just getting bored. i left my job. before i could find a new one. and now i can't find a new one. and i feel really vulnerable and fucked. i need money for so many things, music, a set of drums, pay my dad for a plane ticket, drugs, aaaargh. today's been an ok day. we actually did some work in physics today, but not much so it was good. psychology involved more work but my friend who does biology just got a 1000 word essay on the importance of water for homework and i'm thanking fuck i don't have to deal with that as i have other shit on my plate to deal with. i pierced my nipples last friday and i told my mom last night and she started crying and performing and being all, "i'm such a bad mother, how did i raise you, blah blah blah, et cetera." i watched an awesome drama-ish show last night called ny-lon. it was quite fucking amazing and i'm gonna buy the soundtrack as soon as i can find it possibly just for a chill version of mr. bojangles. i smoked pot on my school field in broad daylight today, for the second time, during school hours. how fucking pathetic is a school that doesn't properly monitor that kind of shit????? oh well. i guess i'm out of shit with which to bore you now kiddies, so i'll have to say goodbye. goodbye.