my mom is a total asshole. she spent the money my dad gave me to buy new shoes. not all the money, but still, WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK! i have one whole pair of shoes, they're looking fucked, i need new shoes, WAY TO FUCKING GO, MOM! so now i have to wait until my stepdad gets paid to get my new shoes. FUCK THEM ALL. COFFEE HOUSE PROPAGANDA NO MORE! anyhow, i haven't updated for a while, so i might as well tell y'all about the last few days. monday was just straight up fucking wierd. i bought myself a misfits t-shirt. i NEVER buy myself clothing! only once ever before that! so, misfits t-shirt. also, i spoke to my beloved coffee shop girl. and i followed two girls home. well, i followed them halfway, introduced myself and told them i'd been stalking them, then walked them home. it was a very uncomfortable situation, it was a lot like ghost world and i felt like seymore. funny thing is, they were a hell of a lot like rebecca and enid. one of them even looks like enid. yesterday was job-hunting day. i went to a recruitment agency called blue arrow. a women told me that because i'm under 18, i would have to go to the job centre or connexions centre to acquire a letter stating that i've been for carreers advice before i signed up with their agency. so i went to connexions, sat listening to a guy for an hour, babbling on and on about all the options, blah blah blah, jobs jobs jobs, finally i got my letter stating that i'd been for carreers advice and i fucked right off out of connexions. after that, i went straight back to blue arrow. i spoke to the same woman, told her i'd been to connexions and now have a letter stating that i've been for carreers advice. that very same woman then proceeded to tell me that the agence is not currently recruiting and that they apologise for the incon-FUCKING-venience. WHAT THE MOTHER-FUCKING FUCK!!!!! so basically, at the moment, life is shit, i'm horny and single, no job, need money to fund my music, money to fund the body piercing courses i want to take next year, money money money, but i have none none none. how fucking nice for me. better still, i haven't got a single fucking cigarette or any baccy in the whole FUCKING HOUSE. not a penny either to buy some. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!!!! fuck the world, fuck everyone, fuck you, you fat fucking bastards. have a nice fucking day, assholes. : P