wow. hotmail isn't working on the damn computer again. oh well. i've been listening to h. and eulogy by tool over and over again, my favourite songs at the moment. in eulogy, i love, "come down, get off your fucking cross. we need the fucking space to nail the next fool martyr." and h. is just about feeling too connected to someone, i love depressing music, in fact right now i'm listening to 3 libras by a perfect circle. gotta love maynard james keenan. hey, at least i'm not droning on about what kind of tragedy my life is, like all the rest of you, i'm only listening to depressing music. well, most people find this kind of stuff a little upsetting!! i've decided to let you read the entire song's lyrics: He had a lot to say He had a lot of nothing to say We'll miss him We'll miss him We're gonna miss him We're gonna miss him So long We wish you well You told us how you weren't afraid to die Well then, so long Don't cry. Or feel too down Not all martyrs see divinity But at least you tried Standing above the crowd, He had a voice that was strong and loud We'll miss him We'll miss him Ranting and pointing his finger At everything but his heart We'll miss him We'll miss him We're gonna miss him We're gonna miss him No way to recall What it was that you had said to me, Like I care at all But it was so loud You sure could yell You took a stand on every little thing And so loud Standing above the crowd, He had a voice so strong and loud and I Swallowed his façade 'cause I'm so Eager to identify with Someone above the ground, Someone who seemed to feel the same, Someone prepared to lead the way, with Someone who would die for me Will you? Will you now? Would you die for me? Don't you fucking lie Don't you step out of line Don't you step out of line Don't you step out of line Don't you fucking lie You've claimed all this time that you would die for me Why then are you so surprised when you hear your own eulogy? You had a lot to say You had a lot of nothing to say Come down Get off your fucking cross We need the fucking space to nail the next fool martyr To ascend you must die You must be crucified For our sins and our lies Goodbye... i've been told by a most reliable source (lance who used to work at pizza hut) that this song is about L. Ron Hubbard. “I have lived no cloistered life and hold in contempt the wise man who has not lived and the scholar who will not share. There have been many wiser men than I, but few have traveled as much road. I have seen life from the top down and the bottom up. I know how it looks both ways. And I know there is wisdom and that there is hope.” L. Ron Hubbard he seems like an awesome guy. here's a poem by him: A DEMON CAUGHT ME A demon Caught me In my room With a haunting Yell And a cry Of doom He leaped And beat me With a terror Claw. The threats Of misery And grave The banishment of Lord To slave The shriek Of awfulness And sin He! The howling ghastly fantasy The awesome yowling The horrid filthy travesty Of gloom I quailed And whined For mercy I Who had in heyday Eight times slain the Mightiest Of dragons Me! I whined and pled And crawled abed And begged Yea begged for surcease I! A demon Caught me in My room And I Poor fool Had fear enough To weep. he was all phylosophical and poetic and geniused. wow. catch y'all later. stay frosty. : P