yeah i know i am pathetic with the greenday... but they are a good band and billie is so sexy. damn you hot married people. grr. anyway, i know this is on my lillithrysa, but i like it and i am really starting to like this one better, so there may end up bieng stuff from that one in here. eh maybe not. if you really wanna know waht else is fucked up in my life, just go fucking read lillith. you lazy assholes. lala here is the poem that i love and describes how i feel so well. HATE I hate you with every molecule of my being, Every ounce of my soul. For all the times you’ve lied, All the times you’ve tried to hide it. I hate you. Why do you think you need to do this? I know it and it hurts. If only you’d be honest. But you stab me in the back. My blood will be bitter on your Hands and conscience. It will never come away Until you find a time, A way, to stop forcing this Agony upon me. 3/21/05 haha isnt it funny how evil i can be? when i talk to arjay i always forget that she is lying and evil. except when jordan is on and i know shes talking to him. or when i'm reading emial. then i want to rip her fucking face off. sometimes i wish i could be homocidal. it would be fun to kill people just to see what it'd be like. i'd have to kill people i know i'd not miss or be so happy they're gone. hmmm.... anne, jordan, or arjay...? hm... OK AND JUST SOS YA KNOWS. I WOULD NEVER REALLY KILL ANYONE I JUST JOKE ALOT AND MY JOKES CAN GET SORT OF OUT OF HAND AND NOT FUNNY. SORRY do da da. haha youre dead. id love to say that to someone i hate. then whack them. what an imagination i have. it is so very interestingly groovy and frightening.