chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:03:48 PM): what i told you is basically waht i know chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:04:00 PM): i dont want to get into GREAT detail on it... vampier_king_222 (1:04:51 PM): Sorry i hit my head yesterday and i cant remember what you said about it. it was a fast / slow hit that i forgot parts of the day. vampier_king_222 (1:04:56 PM): can you try? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:05:53 PM): i guess.... vampier_king_222 (1:06:02 PM): thanks chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:08:54 PM): they apparently snuck around... arjay says it was partial revenge against her parents... she lied to me about even liking him when they were doing stuff...when she finally admitted anything... it was that they had kissed and made out and... i dunno... she said it was all physical after he frenched her the first time... and now she calls him bitchboy and whoredan... adn they both(her and jordan) know that i like him... he acts mean to her... blocked her on AIM, hung up on her like three times when she called him from my phone the other day, and arjay says her friend paul(who hangs out w/ jordan) says that jordan is a dick to her, and he tries to not talk to her anymore vampier_king_222 (1:10:15 PM): Why do you think jordan is acting that way? Think or a reason or thought? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:11:45 PM): i dunno... maybe he just doesnt like her anymore. she's convinced that he hates her and doesnt seem like she cares alot anymore... jackie is convinced that arjay likes him and arjay says jackie is whack.. and ar is convinced that he likes me... so i dont know... he is.... justhim vampier_king_222 (1:12:36 PM): Do you talk to him any more? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:12:52 PM): no not really chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:13:02 PM): on aim sometimes when it is really him... otherwise no chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:13:10 PM): arjay tries to call him sometimes but he wont talk to her vampier_king_222 (1:13:17 PM): What do you two talk about when you do talk?? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:13:21 PM): last friday nor monday chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:13:33 PM): weird stupid things... not what i'd like to talk about with him.. vampier_king_222 (1:13:50 PM): Have you ever told him you love him? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:14:02 PM): ever? yeah alot chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:14:28 PM): or do you mean when ive talked to him recently? vampier_king_222 (1:14:43 PM): What do you think about this whole situation today? vampier_king_222 (1:14:47 PM): That too chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:16:06 PM): it just confuses me and somtimes makes me sad... sometimes makes me happy... i wish jordan and arjay and paul and i could sit down an figure this all out... i wish i could know jordans feelings without him changing them to please/piss off other people chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:16:13 PM): not recently no... vampier_king_222 (1:16:42 PM): Are you Mad about all of this? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:17:11 PM): no. not particularly. just confused and slightly annoyed vampier_king_222 (1:17:23 PM): Please just tell me your inner most thoughts. vampier_king_222 (1:18:14 PM): Hello??? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:18:18 PM): sorry... vampier_king_222 (1:18:25 PM): Thinking??? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:18:29 PM): yeah... chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:18:53 PM): i dont really know what my innermost thoughts ARE. vampier_king_222 (1:19:00 PM): Just type everything you think chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:20:52 PM): i think... regretting alot... wishing i could know what i want to know.. having jordan as a real friend again... wanting to go jump in the pool... wanting to talk to arjay and robyn about thursday and friday/saturday... chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:21:11 PM): wishing i had the guts to say eveything i want to say WHEN i first decide i want to say it vampier_king_222 (1:21:23 PM): Like?? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:21:36 PM): what is the "like??" for? vampier_king_222 (1:21:57 PM): What do you want to tell ppl? vampier_king_222 (1:22:22 PM): Do you want to tell jordan you love him do you want to tell Arjay how you feel? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:22:50 PM): yes i want to say that to jordan... i dont really edit my thoughts around arjay anymore at all.. if i have something to say to HER, i'll say it. vampier_king_222 (1:25:24 PM): Is there somthing bugging you that your not telling me becuse you seem stressed? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:26:06 PM): im always stressed. at the moment i'm annoyed with my brother for being a chicken vampier_king_222 (1:26:21 PM): Why? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:26:34 PM): he's afraid to come home because there is thunder vampier_king_222 (1:26:51 PM): Oh. it is sunny here. chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:27:18 PM): where is "here"? vampier_king_222 (1:27:31 PM): Where i live now. vampier_king_222 (1:27:36 PM): I moved. chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:27:48 PM): oh right they told me chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:28:09 PM): looking out my east window it is blue sky. but i can hear thunder and it is dark outside. it looks kind of cool actually vampier_king_222 (1:28:26 PM): Cool vampier_king_222 (1:28:46 PM): I am wondering do you wish jordan and you can be together? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:28:56 PM): i am... chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:29:39 PM): sometimes i mean.. yeah he is sort of mean...but lately when i've been around him he's seemed happy in a way and smiles at me... and talks to me... and i see the old jordan in his eyes... vampier_king_222 (1:29:39 PM): Yesterday you said that jordan and arjay hurt each other. for pleasure purpose or fun im wondering? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:29:46 PM): i dont know... probably both vampier_king_222 (1:30:11 PM): how attracted do you think they are too each other? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:30:39 PM): i dont know anymore... it doesnt seem like much. arjay says she doesnt want 'those types of boys' anymore chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:31:10 PM): the attraction is stronger between her and paul vampier_king_222 (1:32:04 PM): Im kind of confused can you tell me the whole story from start to finish so i am clear in the head. Starting from where you dated jordan? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:32:15 PM): oh god... vampier_king_222 (1:32:30 PM): Please? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:32:51 PM): i cant even begin to tell it in any sense making way anymore... too jumbled vampier_king_222 (1:33:21 PM): Still i know you well enogh to get it straight. please??? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:34:10 PM): there's not much to say that matters from when iw as with him vampier_king_222 (1:34:52 PM): Im just curious with stuff like what you did together and how long were you with him. You know the story. chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:35:15 PM): october 4- november 12 vampier_king_222 (1:35:34 PM): And the story inbetween the dates? chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:36:07 PM): my story is different from his... but arjay beleives what i say...so i'm not going to change it for him... just a minute vampier_king_222 (1:36:28 PM): k brb just type chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:37:04 PM): i will even give you excerpts from my actual journal.. vampier_king_222 (1:37:47 PM): ok vampier_king_222 (1:37:50 PM): Back chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:38:30 PM): do you want stuff all the way from oct 4? vampier_king_222 (1:38:41 PM): Sure vampier_king_222 (1:38:46 PM): It will help chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:44:16 PM): this is word for word from my journal: Okay... after school the day got alot better... (oh in sixth arjay was telling me to ask for a ride home from jordans dad and she goes "maybe he WANTS to giveyou a ride!!all disgusting...)so while we were waiting for the pegasette people to let us into brickeys jordan and roberta(theresa) were kicking eachother... and roberta kept trying to kick me and jordan told her to stop... so we congregated in the back of the room and jordan sat by me ]] and then out of nowhere jordan asks "so sarah, you want to go out?" which was by far the best sentence spoken to me all day. i said yes.. duh.. so happy. he took my little bendable pumpkin man and bent the legs into a heart shape. we didnt do much of anything so jordan and i mostly talked the whole time chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:46:54 PM): ... it sort of reminded me of may... the other time we spent all of pegasette talking... i love the way he looks at me when he talks/talks to me... its like that's all he wants to do.. or how he looks at me... like whati'm saying is REALLY important or something... ::sigh:: haha jordans dad did give me a ride home. i told arjay and it took her forever to get it. but today has been a really good day... i almost dont wnat to go to shakespearience tomorrow. i want to stay at school and talk to him. oh well. arjay is planning on calling all kinds of people... maybe i'll call him. i dont know. just... a good day vampier_king_222 (1:46:58 PM): How romantic!! chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:47:09 PM): what chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:47:44 PM): im cheesy vampier_king_222 (1:48:28 PM): lol vampier_king_222 (1:48:41 PM): i think there is a mouse in my computer room! vampier_king_222 (1:48:57 PM): ive g2g email me the rest chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:49:09 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:49:11 PM): bye.. chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:49:25 PM): but what was "romantic?" vampier_king_222 (1:49:58 PM): the story chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:50:04 PM): oh vampier_king_222 (1:50:07 PM): time to cathch a mouse chat_bac_gurl_16 (1:50:17 PM): lol ok bye