i am blowing this all to shit. man... how can your life get so fucked up so quickly? she actually goes "how to say this i am still a might but more on the "do" side than onthe "no" side but still "might". we're getting there arjay .we're a gettin' there. but you can stop lying any ol' time. it feels like theworld is against me. why hasn't my mother gotten me a refill of Zoloft? she ahsnt taken me to talk to anyone about the cuts either. she is so lax about some things. if only she knew. i think ineed to start burning things again. like my diary. not this one tha would be hard. my real diary. except i would feel bad about seeing the sexy pirates go up in smoke. i couldnt do that to johnny and orlando and the oh so fabulous things at hot topic. i can only think how id feel if i tried to burn my precious little evil pins. hey maybei will just undo allthe little pins and put them in a bag and then put all my push pins and safety pins(undone) in the bag too then put my hand in the bag yes muahhahaahhahaha and they willlook like little kitty claw scratches that i already have. see? i need HELP meeeehehehehe. i should stop now. i really should