today we had no school bc of snow or wutever. i FINALLY sent out my letter to bob and carrie this morning! YES! i hate my life most of the time. my broz were making fun of me bc im pagan and i freaked out on them. i was like, you guys dont know how much fun is made of me at school bc im pagan! in my CAD class, chuck always makes fun of me 4 it. i cant take it. and then eric goes name 3 times ive made fun of you. i went to my room and thought about it and when i came baq i had tears running down my face. i told him (and my mom) that he makes fun of me about when i cut, when im upset/crying, my grades, and "teenage drama". i fucking hate him sometimes! i went in my room and thought about it some more and then i came baq out, told them how MUCH it HuRtS me and i told them i wanted to cut SO bad again, partly bc of him then i went outside and went for a walk. it seems that my mom doesnt even care. she didnt even look at me when i was yelling at eric. it seemed that she was taking eric's fucking side. so i cried, a lil...1st time in about 2 months. ive been crying alot more w/in the past few months, since school started really. i really hate the fact that idk my dad. i mean, most of the time it doesnt bother me but when my sister starts to talk about hers (which she's never met either) than not knowing him starts to eat away at me. brandi called me today, YAY! lol, shes gonna make me a TON of cds and shes gonna let me borrow her camera so i can make a collage of my friends from tantasqua bc i might be moving out of the tantasqua district (not shure). i LOVE to take pics and i like 2 make collages out of them. it'll be fun. another thing my bros make fun of me 4 is that im SO NOT athletic/strong. i mean they throw this shit in my face every chance they get! well im gonna stop bitchin, laterz yall.