everything in bold is new BEST fucking song EVER! lol, okay, not best but still...I love it! I had the time of my fucking life at Rites!!! Okay, when I got there, I signed up for kids club as one of my work shits for 2 hours. So for 2 hours, I was baby sitting these 2 kids. That is how I met this guy. He is WICKED hawt, lol. He has a fucking tongue ring!! SO hawt! Anyways, this guy (Cai-sounds like guy but with a k) is 19 & he goes to UMass Amherst! & that is where I want to go! & Sean is going there to, MEGA fucking kool! I hope I get into it..it'd be koo...lol anywayz...So I was watching these to kids & they wanted to watch Cai & Katie play with poi...DUDE! He is SO good at it, lol. So that is how we met, lol. He is SO cute & really cute with kids! Then I was hanging out with all these new people because my other friends were coming on Friday. So I made a couple of new friends. Then he became part of the group, and yeah, I was like..dude, he is SO cute... but he is 19..so I didn't think he would be interested in a stupid little girl like me. Oh well...so I went on..thinking about him and shit..and everyone hung out until about 4 in da morning. Then they all walked me back to my cabin. okay, so my this time, I was liking 2 people...Jay(a HAWT 18 year old girl) & Cai (an AWESOME 19 year old guy)...thinking..SHIT...wish one of them would like me...but I got no chance in hell... So I woke up the next day..freezing cold, lmao. anyways, I hung out with my new group of friends, it was fun. we stayed up late again, lol. But then I wanted to go 2 bed but there was a black bear outside so I stayed up. Then some one suggested me sleep in their cabin so I went to Mael's bed (sounds like mile). and it was an airbed...lol. And I didn't really wanna walk by myself so Cai walked with me, lol..how sweet. Then when we got inside, he said there it is and kissed me on the cheek (or maybe the top of my head-shit-don't remember-lol) and I was like awww, so I kissed him back on the cheeck (yes-=on the cheeck-lol-I remember!) So I tried to sleep but got up an hour later bc I ket waking myself up form shivering. DUDE! It was fucking freezing! Then I went to my cabin and slept. When I woke up..I was cold...once again, lol. So now it is Friday..the fucking DAY I have been waiting for! SARAH WAS COMING!!!!!! Okay, so this is the girl(the major one) that made me start doubting my..straightness, lol. Problem is..she is straight. But me and her joke around n shyt but..I want it 2 be for reall... So she comes and...OMG! I love her a TON! I was SO ahppy to see her! We hugged for about 5 mintues, lol. God she is gorgeous! But..wow...that night...was fucking AWESOME!!!! I went to bed with Cai bc I love lying next to some one while I sleep and god he is a fucking heater! lol But....hmm...that was fun. I was falling asleep and..hmmm...well we started to kiss...mmm, he has a freakin tongue ring..SO fucking hawt! lol. he was SO sweet about it too...lol. He kept asking me if I was okay and stuff, he is SO adorable, lol. And he is..kinky..lol, it was fun....but I love biting so yeah....I got some bite marks on my neck...but they look like hickies, lmao..I left one or 2 on his neck 2...any more later on..lol But yeah... After a while, we went to sleep & I stayed in bed till 1, lol. I am SO freakin lazy!! okay, so yeah, basically, I had a ton of fun with this guy, I also made a bunch of new wicked kool friends! I got high a couple of times and drank a little..not 2 much, lol. It was all a TON of fun. I hope that Cai and I can go father than friends after a while..but of coruse being me, I have doubts... I doubt fucking EVERYTHING..it is freaking horrible! Today was class day, so now I am a senior!! gotta go...