I am in SUCH a good mood today, and I was yesterday when I got home 2!!! And it is Friday the 13th!!! This day is ALWAYS a good thing...every friday the 13th...something good happens, lol. Okay, So yeah, I got money for my ticket and I am picking it up today from Matt. He is kool. So I get to go to the concert and hang out with all my NB friends. But the only problems is, I need an effin ride home, err. Kevin (the bassist for Last Heart Standing) might be able 2 give me a ride home but my mom don't want me 2 ride with him, err. I am gonna BEG her bc no one else I know is going, I just asked Crystal and I hope she can bc my mom would prolly say yes to her!! I hope I can go!! And Sarah is coming over today, we are going to the Brimfield Flee Market!! Her, me, my mom, and my sister Amanda are going! She is taking the bus 2 my house! YES! I get to hang with her..I REALLY like her, ALOT! But I don't want to go out with her bc I don't want to hurt her!! But I SO wanna ask her out! Err, why does life have to be SO effin confusing?! lol Well, I just have to admitt something..It sux, I have been cutting for 3 years then I stoped for the summer then did it again and stopped for another 4 months then I did it again. And it has been 2 weeks sice I did it. So I have been cutting for four years, this sucks, but what I need to say is..even when I am happy I want to cut..like last night, I was cleaning the kitchen and I grabbed a knife to put it away and I had the BIGGEST urge to cut..I don't want to but then again I do..err, what is wrong with me... And why do I always hurt people? I mean if I don't mean 2, how come I keep doing it?!?!?! Why am I SUCH a bytch?!?! I wish I could change how I am, maybe I would stop getting hurt to...pfft, yeah fuckin right.. :)