shattered doesn't even describe the pain in me right now, and it's not over a guy right now...i hate makin friends bc they end up hating me...if i wasnt in class right now, id cry....its so hard not 2...whatever...i think im going to give up on this sitD bc...whatever...paige effin ahtes me and im guessing brandis pissed at me 2...i guess ppl dont like the real me..im flirting...and i dunno...other shit 2....but y bother typing it..no one gives a shit..i dont care anymore about anything..the one reason y i dont cut...i think is leaving me...whatever...all i have for a friend is a fucking knife...the only thing i EVER FUCKING HAD!!!!!!