wtf, I..I just don't know anymore.. I really don't! Should I just give up on everything? No, not as in life itself..just..in things... Not like anyone is gonna read this shit anyways... But I will post just..just because some people seem to actually care.. Yesterday was a ton of fun. Alex, Andy M, Chelsea, Andrew, Eric, Amanda, and I all hung out in my woods then in my camper. It was a ton of fun, shit, I just said that twice huh, lmao, I am a fuckin idiot...ah drr, lol Andy wayz...We were waiting for Cote to come out but he couldn't get a ride from Southbridge, oh well. It is okay. Carrie is picking me up at 4-5, can't wait.. This way, I can leave peoples BULLSHIT behind! I am leaving tonight. I am going to Rites! It is SO much freaking fun! I will be back Tuesday...I know, I know....to soon... How come I can't stay there forever? How come the world can't be FILLED with people like this? Everyone is SO nice, no body fucking judges other people AT ALL! This shit sux, with me and Brandi! I am trying to figure out what I fucking still have of hers and evertime I try to ask her she just walks away, I mean yeah, some how I fucking hurt her and all but I mean, I need to get my shit out of her locker! And she says that she won't let me get my stuff bc I still have some of hers...So that is why I keep trying to ask. Yeah, right, you NEVER fucking gave a shit huh...What the fuck ever.. And I talked to my mom about all of this...She doesn't see how I did anything wrong..and since she (Brandi) won't let me get my stuff..or even let me fucking ask her a fucking question, I have to fucking go to the office...So many people are going to hate me for this!! FUCK! SHIT! BITCH! Can't anyone see I am also hurting, or am I THAT fucking invisible?!?!?! I hate me ALOT sometimes Well, I am writting a really mean letter to my grandmother so I will talk to yall on Tuesday! Thank You all for being SO nice to me.. PS-Mike, if you EVER read this..I heart you...haha..and you are WAY to sad for..you edit: Wow, I just realized that my picture makes me look like I have boobs, lmao, YES!