Everything is going fine.. She and I have not talked since it happened. I just don't know what to say. I want to keep peace, and the only way I feel like I can do that is not talking to her and keeping everything inside. If I knew another way to handle this I would do it that way... but this is the only possible way I can think of. She won't change. We already know that. I have been getting closer to brittany and nadia but whenever we are all hanging out with like our "group" I can feel tension. Lately I have been thinking if it would just be easier if I went away... Maybe then everyone could just pretend nothing happened. But I can't do that, I can't pretend that no one got hurt because everyone did. I want to hang out with david but he has been busy lately. I really miss hanging out with him everyday. Lately I have just wanted to be wanted. You know.. I want him to hug me and tell me it will all be alright. I really do hate drama. It tears me up inside. It is times like these I contemplate moving to Texas, only because then I can start over and have a new beginning. ~Jessica*~