My New Years resolution was to be more selfish. To do what I want to do, to get exactly what I want and what I deserve (In life and love). Why is it so hard for me to be Selfish? Don't I have that infamous 'selfish bone' in MY body?! Geez. Once again I find myself in a relationship that is satisfying... in one way... but less than satisfying in the most important way. Scott is a Comitmentphobe. Ugh. Or it's just that he doesnt want to be in a relationship with me... Ugh. I love to hang out, just chillin, watching movies, doing nothing, HEY he's broke! I really don't as for much... all I want is a label on whatever we are and i'll be perfectly content. Being selfish is getting what I deserve. So.... let's see if I can grow a pair and put my foot down and change something. Ef. Or I can just start dating Matt, the Christian guy who found me on Myspace. Creepy kinda... but I had a phone conversation with him today and he's a nice guy.... We'll see. I like options. Until Next Time Jessica