He's braking my heart and blaming it on me. I'm sorry for anything I have done in the past that might have hurt you. I want to be with you. Only you. I want the world to know that we are together. I want and need your attention in private and at parties, everywhere. I will give you my everything if you just let me. But you don't want me like I want you. I know this. ::It hurts me when you call someone else baby. Even if it is on the internet. Especially her. You know I am sensitive about her.:: My friends say it is my fault that I am still with you.. I am hurting myself. But I want to believe you will stop hurting me. That you will see me and realize that I do... Seriously... I don't know what to do. My head says stop being stupid. But my heart has come so far. Farther than it has been with anyone else. I don't want to give up. Maybe I can't. Like megan said.. I'm just waiting for you to leave me. To hurt me. Because that is my wall. That is my defense. That is my problem. I don't believe you. I don't trust you. But I want to. ~Jessica*~