I guess it was mutual. But really.. I would have liked to work it out. We didn't have anything to work out really. He just.. didn't have the time.. to commit... to.. me. I have bad timing. I always fall for the guys who can't like me when I need them to. I feel like an idiot for wanting to love him so much. For wanting to be with him. For giving him so much of myself. I wanted him to come over tonight. To fix things. I convinced myself he was going to. He didn't. I don't like being alone. Why can't I ever find that one.. that will care.. really care.....? I'm jelous of Mecca and Pip. Because through all of their problems they can work it out. They always work it out. They always seem to find a way to be with each other. I hate to give up. I don't want to. But it is a two way street... and he is fine where he is. Fuck