I just want to be happy. But what makes me happy? I don't even know. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. I can't hold myself to that expectation. Yet, I want to. What is perfect? What does the media say it is? A beautiful boyfriend? A hot Car? A nice body? The Brady Bunch family? Your health? Best friends? Well.. I have a beautiful boyfriend, I have a car, I have a nice body, I have a disfunctinal family, I have my health and I have my Best friends. iamnothappy. I think I just want too much. ~Jessica*~